Thank You — Ten Years Too Late.

by Unfrozen Caveman Law Writer

Google can be a real downer.

Sometimes, I like to search for people from my past that I’ve long lost touch with to see how they’re doing. Usually, it’s to satisfy some momentary burst of curiosity inspired by one of the many mental tangents my brain seems to go on. I’ll pass by a piano and wonder what became of my old piano teacher and the music school I used to go to on Saturdays. I’ll write about some lawsuit and wonder whatever happened to some of my law school classmates or former work colleagues. I’ll watch Lebron James throw down a monster dunk and think about some of the guys I used to play basketball with and how we’d feel when one of us would do something like that – on video games we’d play after we were done laying bricks on the basketball court.

Today, I thought of Georgeann Rettberg. I was thinking about why I became a writer in the first place, and she was the first person that I thought of. She was in charge of the Western Pennsylvania Writing Project’s Young Writers Institute in Pittsburgh. The program, which is still around today, looks to teach and develop writing skills in schoolchildren from grades 4 through 12. I attended the summer program, which ran five days-a-week for about six weeks, on two occasions. I don’t remember the dates (the second time was in 1991) but suffice to say I was pretty young at the time and would have rather been out having fun instead of using my brain. My parents, however, thought it was a good way for me improve my verbal skills (my dad had the math part covered) so that I could do well on the SAT and get into a good college.

Little did they realize that they were starting me on the path to becoming a writer. Heck, I didn’t even realize it at the time. I’m sure Georgeann didn’t realize it either. After all, not everyone who comes through the Institute is destined to be a writer- and I was certainly no better or worse than the hundreds of kids who signed up.

But the Young Writers Institute is where I learned that I could be a writer if I wanted to. The best part of the program was that it didn’t try and make you do things you didn’t want to do. If you hated poetry and wanted to only write fiction, you could. If you were interested in journalism, you could do that too (in fact, the very first story I ever published was a story about the program written with two other students in my class). For me, I had never tried my hand at writing satire before doing the Institute. My piece on George H.W. Bush’s White House was so well received that Georgeann got the (now-defunct) Pittsburgh Press to run an excerpt of it. They even interviewed me for good measure. I remember being very nervous when the reporter from the Press spoke to me, but Georgeann was there and made sure I was relaxed and didn’t say anything stupid. That’s what I always remembered about her. That and the rose tattoo on her wrist. We all thought she was a real badass for having that.

Georgeann died over Memorial Day in 2003 of a self-inflicted gunshot wound. According to this link, her husband followed her example and shot himself to death a couple of months later. At the time of her death, things seemed to be looking up for her. She had just gotten her MFA from Johns Hopkins and had some good opportunities on the table from both the University of Pittsburgh and Carnegie Mellon University.

I found two of her poems online and it seems like she was a very sentimental person who valued her family. In “Grandmother,” she talks about how her grandmother came to the United States by herself in 1911. She was full of optimism at the prospect of making a better life for herself in the land of opportunity, only to be burdened by a thankless job and familial tragedy. She spent every morning at Mass, “lighting a candle for a prayer to be answered.” The poem ends with the line “I want to know my grandmother.” I can’t help but wonder what Georgeann was trying to say. Was her grandmother bitter with life and praying to God to intervene and either take her away or make things better? Was she impressed that her grandmother’s faith never wavered despite all the difficulties she had faced? When she says she wanted to know her grandmother, was she hoping that her grandmother could empathize with the pain she was experiencing and help her get through it?

I’ll never know why she chose to end her life. All I can say is that she had a tremendous influence on me and is one of the reasons why I am writer. She touched the lives of so many children and who knows how many of them are also writers now because of her? I only wish she had decided to stick around and inspire another generation of children. I wish more kids could have known her.

Rest in peace, Georgeann. Thanks for everything.


Nicole January 23, 2022 - 12:41 pm

Thank you for this post.

Ms. Rettberg was my kindergarten teacher back in the 1980’s in Pittsburgh, PA. She recognized my love of the written word and writing very early on and encouraged me to express myself in that way. She helped me compose poems and my first experience being published was through her – before I even reached the second grade! Ha ha. She helped me read my poems to large audiences and talked me through my anxiety. I belonged to the writing program she started and was a member throughout my time in elementary school. Years later, in high school, I ran into her at a poetry reading at the Bloomfield Bridge Tavern. We hugged for a long moment and she signed her poetry chapbook, “Steelworker’s Daughter” for me. That was the last time I ever saw her. She is the reason why I love writing and why I love to read. She is also the reason why I encourage people to seek out the perspectives of writers from working class backgrounds. She made it a point to show any kid they were capable of expressing themselves through the written word. Of all of the teachers I’ve ever had in my life, she made the biggest impression on me. I feel lucky to have had her as my very first teacher. She was one of the best. I’m glad she was in your life.

I found out about her death years ago, the same way you did. I looked her up. She still pops into my mind. I confess, I still look her up online. It’s good to know others remember her.

I’ll never forget her tattoo or the boa constrictor she sometimes brought to class. She is a star in my memory.

Unfrozen Caveman Law Writer January 24, 2022 - 10:33 am

Thanks for your comment. I didn’t know about the boa constrictor. That might have freaked me out a little bit, but it just shows how badass she was.

It’s nice knowing that she made an impact on so many people’s lives. I’m glad you have such fond memories of her. She really was a star.

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